Monthly Archives: March 2009

randam, so me and carter where talking about braces today at work. Yeah you remember those days and if youa re still in them, so sorry my friends, i remember the days. (mom just came in, she really does think I am weird, but she still loves me) any way carter and I thought long and hard about the agony of those crazy metal things parent put on your teeth to make the straight. Remember the wires that always hit in the back of your mouth and the gross wax you had to put on them to keep it from getting too sore. And rubber bands and how they just used to pop off all the time. and I my friends had a headgear, yes that is right a headgear I used to sleep in. It was the most horrible thing I have ever had to do and I had a freaking kid- thank god for epidurals.

your mouth would hurt for days. and then when they actually took the braces off, you teeth hurt for weeks. they were so sore and you would have to wear that stupid retainer. I really need to learn how to spell and maybe type as well. Thank god for spell check.

When I was 10 I thought I would look so cool with braces. And then I got them. Man was I wrong.

later hater


Okay I said I would write and here I am.


After 3 years of marriage my husband and I have decide to split. I need him to get off the car insurance and cell phone, but I am no sure when he will. I think I will just give him a deadline and cancel it all after that date and he can f**king fend for himself. He is a grown man.

 I don’t really know when everything went bad, but I really think it was before we got married. He is not what I want or need in my life. Some days I feel like he has really ruined my life, but others I have the greatest pumpkin ever and he gave that to me. He says that all he wants is for me and pumpkin to be happy but I am not and I never will be with him. I really don’t care if he is happy. F**k him. I am not angry anymore, just tried of him and his craziness.

See I married a crazy african. And I regret it, but that is life.

I told my mother and she said “Good. I didn’t see the two of you making it. He is just too self-centered.” She is right it has always been about OHM and never about JAM or MFKM. My life used to always be about me and then I meet him and then it became all about him. I have pumpkin know and my life is all about him, and it always will be now. That is okay, pumpkin ROCKS!

I really could go on and on about OHM, but you know I am 30 and better then that. I have just made up my mind and this is how it is going to be. I think a divorce is not to expense, but then again I don’t know. I will google it tomorrow and find out. And i know that me and pumpkin will be okay. We have the greatest Nana in the whole wide world and she will always love and help us in life. She will always be there. I know that.

I hope that everyone finds my life interesting, I sure as hell do. And I am trying not to swear in this thing called a blog, but you know F**K it.

I know I have not been writing as much as I should. I will try to do better. I have had a couple of rough weeks and I think tonight I shall blog with all my heart. Some new entries. Some fun fun random thoughts and maybe, just maybe pour out my heart and figure out life and where I am going in it. This road is quite unusual.

My son did not sleep last night and I have had  figuratively 50 cups of coffee and I am about to crash. So it is totally not on. I hate not sleeping. And pumpkin is going to be mad at me because I was really tired last night and he would not go to sleep. I yelled at him. My poor pumpkin though, he has a fever of 102 and is now at home with Nana. I need to go home and take care of him.

I hope kinda, he is still sick tomorrow so we can play hooky, I AM SO F**KING TIRED!!!